Let me elaborate on my philosophy: Trying is not achieving. However, one cannot achieve without trying. With my stubbornness, I would say fuck it, I'll take that 50-50. Trying might result in nothing, but nothing definitely comes without trying. It might give me a broken nose, a bloody forehead, or a bleeding heart, but I can't live my life without knowing for certain that I have tried my best.

I don't know why I don't talk much either. Think I might have been tired, or maybe its just the same old problem of me really being unable to make conversation with girls very well.

I really do wish I could read your mind

Because your hands feels so good in mine....

Maybe the things I give away too freely will become under appreciated.

Makes me sad when I think about the fact that you might just walk away from me...

i hope the ride was comfortable =)

im not playing games when i say i like someone. im not looking to play around. its simple as that. its all abt the trust.

When will I ever get out of this rut of being just a friend. Please, not "just a friend" anymore? Three times is enough already.

At this time you wanted chocolate, and the only thing I wanted to do is to get one giant bar for you....

I want to hold you in my arms......but I cannot.

Can I be the glue that holds the pieces of your heart back in place....

Star light,
Star bright,
First star
I see tonight

I wish I may,
I wish I might,
Have this wish
I wish tonight.

One step at a time..... Hopefully in the right direction.

No one can promise they’ll never hurt you, because at one time or another they will. The real promise is if the time you spent together will be worth the pain in the end.

She is such a heartbreaker...

This is becoming like a script out of Sex and the City: I got the sex part out of the way and the friend part comes in. I think I really jumped the gun.

I'll be the first to admit it. I need the company. I keep chasing after girls whom I think can provide me the attention. I need the attention. I crave the attention. I need someone to listen to me whine. Maybe friends will be surprised, but I whine like a girl. I'm no macho man. I'm just a wimpy slob. No matter how much I maintain my body, keep myself intelligent, play lots of instruments, lets face it: I have a diminutive view of myself, I am inferior because I let myself be judged by whether a woman loves me. I'm fucking sick. I hate myself.

So tired... feel like giving up but NO. One more week. Please let it come fast and furious. I'm really tired.

We all love things that are bad for us..... Please, let go. Open your hands, let the sands drift in the eddies of time.

who have u decided to hurt this time

I am eating and eating and eating. Know why? No its not because of exam stress. It's cos im stocking up for the winter depression..... LOL

I feel like I have fallen into a very deep pit, this sudden withdrawal leaves me gasping for air. It's becoming a huge stone on my heart and it is decapitating. I keep on reaching out to people around, to hold them for strength, but when I'm alone, I slowly sink back in. Her MSN nick read "Stop for good & Restart for good, dun need wait" on that very day where I had a talk with her and she told me to stop being so nice to her. I asked why, we are doing ok so far right? She replied that it is exactly because we are doing ok thats why she wants me to stop, she's already gonna date other men. And she never told me why. Is it revenge for having been cheated by another guy? What does that have to do with me? Why just pick a random target? And why do all that you have done if you did not like me enough to continue on? All questions. Questions that can never be answered. I want to forget. It's a meaningless experience.

why issit that i, being the guy, has emotional attachment to sex, while the girl doesnt? is something wrong with me? why am i the one getting played? i've never had any intention to play any girl, but it happened to me first.... incredible.

It's complicated because I have the body but not the heart... And I can only keep trying and trying and trying...

Let me tell you what's the difference between a blog and a twit or a fb. On fb, you send news of yourself to everyone, where they may or may not want to know. However, on a blog, the people coming to read, sure as hell are interested, otherwise why bother reading? Thank you dear readers, whichever phantom you are. This is my only true outlet.

What a crazy crazy day..... =D

Just so lost sometimes. What is right and what is wrong.

Lesson No. 1: Do not be sticky. She will stick to you as and when she wants, but will not tolerate you sticking to her.

Lesson No. 2: Do not doubt her ability to take care of herself, however much she lacks that ability.

Lesson No. 3: Answer her message and answer it fast, otherwise you would either get a call (good) or you get a message that says "???" (bad).

Lesson No. 4: Do not ask to see her too often. (See point no. 1)

That's all for lecture 1 of the new semester. Have a nice Friday. =)

Love happens. Goddamn right it does.

Be with you everyday